Thursday, August 23, 2012

Reflection (Written For School)


            The idea of reflecting my thoughts onto paper terrified me at first. Which is hugely ironic because my favorite pastime is blogging, an internet activity where I basically write how I’m feeling and what I’m doing down on a website. But this is school, a completely different setting with completely different rules. What am I expected to write down? Am I doing this wrong? The answer, of course, is probably.
            I jumped back and forth from topic to topic over the past few days, from things close to my heart and empty shells of topics that I could easily write without having to open up. But the point of this paper is to reflect, and reflect I will. I’m choosing to write about the connections we make in high school. I guess you could say relationships, from the friendships we build to the romantic bonds we try to form. High school is a terrifying time, especially if you’re not a very social person. Balancing school work, hobbies, a social life, and enough sleep is nearly impossible. To make my life easier, I tend to forgo social relationships. I convince myself that they are not needed; that they are extra fat I can trim off. But in truth, I can’t and I know it. I need friends to survive in this world. Friends are the best support system in tough times. Everyone acts like you can talk to your parents, but really you can’t. At least I can’t. I’m very close to my parents and I love them so, but I don’t feel I can share my problems with them. How minuscule would my teenage anguish appear compared to their real world problems? That is why I don’t turn to my parents, I turn to my friends. Good friends will listen to you and not judge, because they are in the same place you are. In times of prosperity, they can make you laugh. They bring you joy and brighten up your life. I can’t even be sure I’d still be here without them. The best part is you don’t need lots. Really, you just need one. But some of us are blessed to have many more than one, and for that I am grateful.
          *removed*
            I’ve never been good at ending things, but I’ll try to review. Friends are great assets, and if you want to survive and enjoy high school you should find some who like you for who you are. Relationships are also good, and if you’re that kind of person you should have one. We all deserve to be happy.
(I apologize if this is completely wrong. I’d understand a bad grade on this assignment, because part of me doesn’t think this is what you were looking for. But I can’t deny how satisfying it felt to write this, and that’s why I’m not going to turn in a paper with problems I made up just for class. I want to turn in something I spilled my heart into, because I don’t believe in not giving 100% when it comes to writing.)

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